Its Time for Change

Its been couple of days since Pakistan is violating ceasefire along the International Border in the state of J&K. Although ceasefire violation by Pak is a normal routine, this time the situation has intensified. This is because Pak is targeting the civilian population this time. A lot of people have lost their family members, their houses are damaged by the Pak bomb shelling, and their cattles (on whom their life depends) have been killed by the Pak firing.

The present situation is that Pak is firing along 150 villages and 70 BSF posts. People are migrating from these tense areas to the rehabilitation centres at safer places. At some places, a virtual war like situation has prevailed, in fact the situation this time is even worse than the war times. Various people died and a lot more have been injured till now. There has been a massive destruction of houses and other structures in the border villages.

Its really commendable that Indian Army is retaliating with full force. And this is happening for the very first time in the past 10 years. But what makes me tense is the situation is still intensifying. The retaliation is not solving the purpose, people are dying, they are losing and that's too in both the countries. Pakistan is just increasing the level of its shameless acts. So I can clearly say that its not the right solution.

I just read today two women of same family died in a village during the shelling. But the worst thing is that they cant be cremated now because all their family members are injured and admitted to the hospital. Besides this news, I read a statement made by our PM Narendra Modi that "Everything will be fine soon." Although I admire him a lot and I know he can't change the mindset of Pak Army but I really want to ask..."Is it so?" Is it possible that everything will be fine. Maybe it'll for the rest of the world but what about the people who have lost their family members, their sources of income (cattles) and their houses - what they have lost is lost forever. The loss can never be amended.

No matter how much relief material the Government will provide, their life is effected to a greater extent. Wars always does this harm. Wars always let people suffer and these people have witnessed many. The memories of 1971 and 1999 Kargil War is still fresh in their memories as they had lost their homes even then too. People of these villages have suffered even at that time. They've just started to explore their lives again but now this.

So I just wanted to ask both the countries why and until when they'll be like this. Its the time that both should understand that Wars can only destroy them. It will not give anything except bitter memories. And in fact, we can't even let go of this issue. We have to solve it with mutual understanding but have to do that once and for all. If they still have some doubt in their mind, they should ask their respective Army how much they're gaining from all of this. And I hope they'll understand that they're gaining nothing but losing everything.

Fighting with myself

A scene at home feeling sad and fighting with myself:

Me (getting anxious): "Its been more than 36hrs since I have talked to him. I cant live like this anymore."
Inner voice: "Stop this non-sense and focus on your task. You have to do this to be strong and fight for him."

Me: "But I can talk to him once."
Inner voice: "No stupid. You have to fight first, you have to talk to your parents and get an answer for him. Only then you should talk to him."

Me (looking at my cousin and thinking): "OK. BUT what is she doing here since day before yesterday? She should have come here few days earlier or few days later. Why she had chosen this time? Otherwise I would be having a discussion right now."
Inner voice: "Not again stupid! You have an exam tomorrow morning. Doesn't matter she is here or not, you should be studying right now."

Me (making faces) switching on my laptop, trying to search what I need to study at this moment. As usual, first of all opening my emails and thinking of him.
Me: "I can at least ping him to ask how is he doing and tell him that I miss him."
Inner voice: "Just shut up now. You're giving me a headache. Focus on your exam and study you fool."

Me (again making faces) reading few topics for my exams and listening to songs to focus myself.
Cousin: "Hey di, what are u doing? What are you studying?"
Me (thinking): "Doesn't matter she is here, I have to study, I can't talk about him at present."
Me (talking to her): "I have an exam tomorrow morning, so I am preparing for that and side-by-side listening to songs on Youtube."

She (looking in my books): "What is this? What is it related to?"
Me: Its Aptitude and I am studying few new shortcuts to ease my calculations in the exam."

Inner voice: "Explain her fast and get yourself indulge in the studies. You don't have much time."
Me (thinking): "I hope I could have talked to him, I would have felt better and energized for the exam."

She: "What is your syllabus? What you have to study for your exam?"
Me: "Dear, the syllabus is easy but its level is high which makes it difficult. I have five sections, 200 questions and 120 minutes. This is an another factor that creates difficulty."

She: "OK, I can understand. You carry on and All the Best."
Me (smiling at her and thinking): "May be I could have said him to wish me luck as that matters for me the most."

Me again reading the topic I was reading and searching for few more topics to read. But still somewhere waiting to talk to him.

Me (thinking): "How I am gonna talk about him? What will I say to Mom? Is there any hope?"
***Sighs***
Me (thinking): "So I should be readying my weapons for the war as I am gonna have a fight for him on Monday if my cousin would have gone by then. By the way, How will I start?"
Inner voice: "Jerk, stop this otherwise you'll loose this chance. You know this is a very important exam as it will let you be in Jammu and you can be with him. So if you really love him and want to be with him, focus on your exam today and after that give your best."

Me: Its true, if I really love him I have to do something except thinking. I have to give my best to both my Career and my Relation. I have to fight for him and its better to make other things clear before I start that war. So I should give my 100 percent for the exam now and then 100 percent for the fight. I know its gonna be tough but I cant live without him and the proof is in front of me right at this moment. And thus if I really want to live I have to fight and I will do it. And I have to do that as early as possible cos even he would have been missing me; even he would have gone mad by now.

In the afternoon:
Me: So everything is decided, now I just have to make it practical. Oh God Please help me.

Finally focusing on my syllabus with a determined mind. Lets see what I'll do and how much I'll succeed. Wish me LUCK!!

On Special Request

Hi Friends,
Just like my previous blogs, this one is also about someone I know. Actually I am writing this one on a special request by someone. Hope you all have fun reading it. :)
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It was 2nd of January 2012 and two new joinees were about to join our team in Innodata. We all were excited because our team was expanding from 8 people to 10. Obviously, it was a good sign; it meant that we were doing our job properly. Well, both of them reached on time. We all met them; their names sounds lil bit similar to me (I don't know about others). In fact, earlier, I thought they both knew each other before joining us. Although, later I came to know that it was not true. ;)

Our TL gave them an overview of the Tasks they were gonna face during their tenure with us. He decided that first of all we will teach them QA tasks. At that time, I also used to deal with the QA tasks. So, our TL decided that I will explain them one of the Tasks I was assigned to. I agreed and started teaching them. That was my first one-to-one interaction with both of them. During this, I observed that one of them was quite friendly. Being interactive, he was clarifying his doubts by asking various questions. On the other hand, the other one was quite and calm. I was confused whether he really understood everything or actually nothing. He did not asked a single question and said he understood everything. Later that day, my TL asked me about their review and being friendly I told him all this clearly.

To my surprise, both of them learned the work very fast. Although they used to have few doubts; but still their progress was good. And I came to know that the 'other one' has actually understood all the facts which showed that he was a quick learner and had a sharp mind. In my words, his mind had the same level as of mine in terms of work. Rest, I still didn't knew.

I must mention here that I love to read people; I observe people and try to find out about them. In his case, even after minute observation I was not able to find much about him. He used to keep quite and don't get much involved. I knew about his mind level but rest was still not sure. Either he was shy or he was a keen observer; I still had to find out.

I remember correctly that my first proper interaction with him was in the Office Shuttle. It was a normal chit-chat; I asked him most of the questions like from where did he belong, what has he done as graduation, etc. I came to know that he was a B.Tech and joined our team to start up his career. After that interaction, he started opening up a little bit. This proved that he was a bit reserved-type and take time to open up. Later on I also find out that he used to observe too but he kept most of his observations secret. He don't discuss everything; may be he don't trust much.

Due to his quietness and un-involvement with us, we doubted him to be a case like Ranjay. We were frightened of this fact. And this led my TL to focus on him to make him friendly at least with him. He started talking to him a lot; asking him lots of questions. Finally one day, he said to me that he was not a case like Ranjay. He was different from Ranjay; he gets involved with the world and he had a girlfriend too. This was really a relief for all of us ;)

He took time but he got involved with all of us too. He started discussing topics other than work at least topics related to the sarcasm of our PM :P He was a nice person. After few months, we started having lunch together. I came to know that he was a fun-loving guy and don't take work very seriously. He used to keep himself calm and light on work. He also discussed his future plans with me. Slowly and steadily, he started discussing about his friends and his life events. He became a good friend thereafter. 

I have spent only few months with him. I wish we could have spend more time together but whatever amount of time we had that was wonderful. From all that time, I must say he is a lovely person. He is a lovely companion. He is calm, focused, prepared, reserved, passionate, fun-loving, determined. He has done a lot of planning for his future and is putting his 100 percent into it. I wish him Good Luck for his venture. Hope we'll be able to meet again :)

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I know its been a long time since you requested me for this blog, so sorry for the delay. I have tried my best to collect all the lovely memories and put them together over here. I hope u liked it. As I said that I have spent only few days of my life with you, plus you are a reserved person; I think may be something was still pending for me to explore about you. I hope I am not correct because if it is true then there will be just one word for you....that you have a profound/deep personality. :)

A Thing Called...LIFE (Part – II)

Life is really amazing, it let you go through a number of phases – some of them are good while some are bad. However each phase teaches you something. Really, Life is the biggest Teacher of all…..

When I talk about phases, one name surrounds my mind. She is going through a bad phase right now. I conversed with her in the morning, she asked a question to me and I really don’t have any answer for her. She asked me “Why people think that I am something which they can play with or throw away, whenever they want?” I usually don’t believe in such sayings, but what she is going through, I was speechless to answer it.

She had a friend. Both of them used to work in the same company. She got friendly with him and used to take coffee breaks with him only. They used to interact very well regarding their office work as well as personal life. And soon became very good friends. They started meeting even outside the office. They keep meeting even after she shifted her office.

Suddenly something happened, she still don’t know, he stopped replying to her messages. They had a little fight earlier, so she thought that these are the after-effects as she had abused him a lot to overcome her sadness. Later on, she felt regretted and apologized to him. At that time, he said it’s alright but stopped talking to her. However, when she recalled everything, she remembered that he started ignoring her even before that fight and abusing part. This meant that something else had happened which she din’t knew. And it seemed that their friendship ended up when she actually started liking him. She used to miss him a lot.

But the amazing fact is – as soon as she held herself and let herself believe that they were not meant to be friends and he was not worth her liking; he contacted her again. He messaged her, kinda apologizing for previous ignorance and maybe hoping for getting back like earlier again. But how can she trust someone again. He is just reminding her about all the pain he gave her. How can she believe him again? What if he’ll do the same again…?

These questions are very obvious for her. She can’t trust him again. After all, all this is happening again in her life. She had faced the same situation previously. During our college time, she had a friend with whom she used to spend all of her time. She used to share everything with him. He was her best friend. Actually, both of them used to be so close to each other that everyone believed they had an affair. He used to say that we’ll be together forever; no one can separate us.

When our college was about to end, he started ignoring her. He avoided her phone calls and never replied to her messages. She cried a lot; she wept a lot but he was gone. She was heartbroken. She just kept crying in her room; it was so difficult for us to let her live again. It took her an year to overcome his absence. And when she did that, he came in front of her apologizing for the past year. She needed him so badly that she forgave him with a new beginning in her mind.

They started talking and meeting again. She started trusting him and depending on him again. Even we were so happy to see them together again. But to everyone’s surprise, he again started avoiding her and started keeping himself away from her. Their meetings reduced, their phone chats got reduced. He started building a bridge in between them. They are friends now, but there is a lot of difference. They are no more best friends, not even good friends. It’s like they are just acquaintances.

After experiencing all this, how can she give a chance to someone else to play with her emotions again?? I don’t think she can, and in fact she should not. She should learn from her past. It will be painful for her to ignore her apologizing friend but it will be even more painful, if he would do that again. I think she should not take this risk and move forward.

I just hope and pray to God to end her pain and let her be happy. I hope her life will show its best in future. May God Bless Her…!!

A Thing called...LIFE (Part - I)

"A Thing Called...LIFE" - I read it somewhere. Just four words written by someone but had a lot of meaning and tells a lot about that someone especially when these words are set as a Status....

As soon as I read this status, a number of thoughts rolled up in my mind and I felt its truthfulness. Truly, Life is a thing we don't know; it cannot be explained. It gives us so many lessons, teaches us at every point. Doesn't matter we want to learn or not, it let us learn whatever it wants. It let us meet different sorts of people - some lovable while some not. They all teach us something new. We gain our experience and knowledge either by watching others or by facing a situation on our own. And how people behave or react in a situation help us to learn more. This whole life is just about learning, gaining experiences.

In fact that someone (owner of this status) has learned a lot through interacting with people. As much as I know her, she has a lot of friends. Although she don't want to increase the number of friends in life but still she does the same and get attached. However, she has learned to hide her feelings to some extent and to adjust among people she don't like but from inside she always want to be with people she loves and she get hurt a lot. This is life which made her strong enough to face the separation of her loved ones.

Generally, Life teaches us good things but sometimes its not the same case. She used to be a very good friend of mine. I used to share a lot of things with her. I remember the sleepless nights spent with her when we were just talking and sharing our feelings. She always hide few personal things but it was OK for me because it is her life and its her right to keep her life secret. However she used to share her feelings or used to discuss her problems sometimes in indirect way. But I loved to be the part of her life. I enjoyed being with her.

Suddenly, something happened. I still don't know what but she got apart from me. She stopped sharing her thoughts. Some mistakes from both the sides, and our friendship ended up at just two known people. We pretended to be friends but we both knew that we were not. Whenever I think of this, I feel that I should have talked to her directly. Maybe she was going through a bad phase and in spite of being angry with her, talking to her might have saved our relationship.I feel that being angry with her made our relation worse. I knew that she is sensitive and she hides, so I should have asked her. Although I did the same but it was too late. She had been too far from me till that time and talking to her at that time was of no use. I will always regret for my part of mistakes. I would say my part of mistakes because if I was her friend, she could have come to me to talk about the growing distance between us. However she didn't tried it. But again, as I said maybe she was going through a bad phase, so I think it was my fault.

But whatever happened, whatever is going on I will remember her in my life for the time we were together and for the time we were close. She was and she will be a good friend of mine in spite of all the misunderstandings and distances. I hope she will be smiling always :)

Diary Entry

28^th Aug’13

10:00pm

Dear Diary,

Today is Krishna Janamashtmi. I was at home all the day and was remembering the occasion of last year. I want to tell you about it.

Last year, I was in Chandigarh and I had my office that day. I got up early in the morning, got fresh and with my roommate went to the nearby Isckon temple. We left the PG at 7:15am and reached there at 7:30am. The temple was closed for the devotees at that time and priests were preparing for the day. We had a little walk in the nearby area till 8am. After that we entered the temple, no devotee was present there till that time. We sat in the middle area and started noticing the priests decorating the temple. At 8:30am, the Morning Prayer got started. Till that time a number of devotees gathered in the temple. It was the first time when I was attending the Morning Prayer of Isckon temple. They did it very well; with lots of enthusiasm. I enjoyed it a lot. After that we went back to our PG, got ready and went to our respective offices. But that wonderful start of the day was still in the mind.

When I reach my Office, I found that there is not much work assigned to me. It relieved me a little but my empty stomach was creating panic for me. I had a fast and so I had nothing since morning. I went to the Office Cafeteria but found nothing for me. There was a guy in my Office whom I met just few days back and we exchanged our Skype Id’s. I was chatting with him and I came to know that he had a throat infection. He was hungry too. We decided to go downstairs. It was the first time when I went out with him. We met in the Reception area and moved ahead. We went to the Food Court in search of something I could eat in my fast but found nothing. Then we went out and had a glass of fresh juice each. I still don’t know why I went with him. I barely knew him till that time. But that first time resulted into daily meeting either in the Cafeteria or downstairs. Soon, we became very good friends.

Today when I was remembering that day, I was tearful. Those were really nice days. My roommates supported me a lot; I spent a very nice time with them. Even for that day, memories of Isckon temple are lovely. I love them a lot; they made my 3 years memorable. But today when I remember that day, I regret being with that guy as our friendship didn’t even last for a year. We are no more friends. I know I committed few mistakes but I also apologized for it. But I really don’t know what has made us this much apart. He never said a word about it.

But to end up with good notes, I am really thankful to God for my lovely roommates. I am still in touch with them. I miss them a lot and I want to be with them always. Love you sweethearts <3

With Love

Priya

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Love of My Life

While sitting on the bed on my first night and waiting for my husband to enter the room, I was remembering my boyfriend and my four years of love. I love him a lot and he loves me even more than that.

My memories took me 4 years back when we became friends. We were working in the same office. He is a very fun-loving guy and he used to make all of us smile. I loved this thing about him and soon we became very good friends.

One day, he was really upset due to some tension in between him and his team lead. He was totally quiet for the whole day. I felt bad about him and tried my best to make him smile and share his sadness. At the end of the day, he asked me whether he can drop me home. I knew that he wanted to share his feelings and that’s why I agreed. On the way to my home, we discussed his problem first and then he asked me whether I am engaged or not. This created a little suspicion in my mind.

The next day, everyone from our team left the office early. Both of us were alone in the team; we had a little pending work to do. We had a lot of chit-chat and he gave me a little hint that he wanted me to be his partner but I ignored his hint. At the end of the day, he again asked me whether he can drop me home. I don’t know why, I agreed. On our way when we were crossing a river bridge, he proposed me (on the old Bajaj Scooter ;-)). The way and location of this proposal was weird; it seemed like he would push me into the river, if I deny. I did not reply him; actually I didn’t know what to say, I knew that my parents won’t allow me for anything like this and they are strictly against love marriages. He tried to convince me and said he’ll wait for my reply.

I kept thinking of him and his proposal. I knew that he is a very nice, kind and helpful person, but what about my parents. I made up my mind that I’ll deny his proposal but my heart – my heart kept me forcing to accept his proposal and give him a chance. At last, my heart defeated my mind. On the next day (Sunday), I called him and after a little chit-chat, gave him my affirmative answer. He was very happy; I heard that in his voice. We had a long conversation on the phone in the night after everyone falls asleep.

On the next day in the office, we hugged each other for the first time. We decided to keep our relation hidden from everyone in the office. So, we had to find time and place to meet each other properly. Somehow, we managed to hug each other every day.

One day, I was alone in the room and working on my system. He entered the room to keep his belongings into his desk. I was totally merged in my work when he bent towards me and kissed me on my cheek. He left the room immediately leaving me astonished. I was really shocked by his behavior but it felt so good and soft.

We used to behave like colleagues in front of everyone. One day after lunch we met near the corridor where we hugged each other. And for the very first time he kissed me on my lips. It was just a kiss, not a smooch. I was shaken by that soft touch. That feel was awesome; I can still feel it.

Just in few days, we came so close to each other. I forgot about everything – what I remember was only him. He was exactly the way I wanted. He had all the traits – naughty, fun-loving, soft-hearted, helpful and generous. He seems to be like a man of my dreams.

After few months, we switched our jobs. I moved to Chandigarh and he was there only. Now our relation became a long distance relation, which is really hard to maintain. We had few fights but we managed to overcome all the evils. We put our best to our relationship. In spite of the fact that we were far from each other, we still managed to be close to each other.

The days passed by in no time and my parents started to worry about my marriage. After gathering a lot of courage, I told them about my relationship with him. And as I expected they denied. The reason was – my parents wanted someone well established as my groom. However, he was still struggling with his career. He had a job but that was not up to my parents’ expectations. I tried a lot to convince them, I cried and cried and cried. But no one was there to listen to me. I wanted them to understand that I cannot afford to lose him; he is everything for me. I was crying in front of them but they didn’t cared. I knew that I cannot leave my parents, but at the same time I cannot even lose him.

Suddenly the sound of the door brought me back to the present and I found tears rolling out of my eyes. I turned towards the door, someone has entered the room. I raised my head to see his face. He is my husband; he came towards me. As soon as he sat on the bed, I hugged him tight and said ‘I love you’. He felt the soberness in my voice and asked me about it. I hugged him even more tightly and replied that I was remembering our 4 years of love and our struggle. Yes, he is my boy-friend who has turned into my husband now. Yes I had succeeded to explain my love to my parents. Yes, my parents have finally agreed to our relation. Yes, my marriage is Love-cum-Arranged. Yes, all of my sorrows have ended now. Yes, I have started my new phase of life with my love.

Today, we are a happily married couple. J


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